Would you rather sleep 10 hours at night, but have to wake up every 90 minutes for 15 minutes, or would you rather sleep 6 hours straight every night?
I would choose the 6 hours straight. I'll even take 4 hours straight. Unfortunately, my experience is a mixture of the two: 6 hours, but waking up every 90 minutes.
Let's face it. I'm in a really bad mood. I've been up for almost 3 hours already and it's only 7:30.
I know you probably think I'm irresponsible going to sleep so late. My baby goes to bed at 7:20 and my big kid goes to bed at 8. That means I should get plenty of sleep right? I usually like to stay up and wait for my husband to get home which is not a problem because I usually have to clean anyway. Then I cook him dinner, and go to bed which usually ends up being 10. Before I wake up at 5 to get ready and spend a few minutes with my husband, I have already been up 5 or 6 times. I'm tired of it and just tired in general.
I keep putting off sleep training Jocelyn because she's so tiny and I always think she's starving in the middle of the night. Now that she eats more than my 2-year-old in solids, I'm ready for her to cry it out. Just 3 more weeks. The next few weeks will be really busy and hard for John with finals, so I've decided to wait to let her cry it out until after his finals. Instead I'm complaining about how grumpy I am.
Might as well complain more right?
I know later I am going to debate deleting this post because I'm being so negative, but right now I'm so tired I don't care.
Yesterday I made chicken cacciatore (bloody chicken) for dinner with polenta. It usually turns out really delish, but this time around, it was pretty gross. I ate a little, but then started snacking on junk food. It's so devastating, but rare when I cook a disgusting meal. Now I feel as junky as the food I ate.
I even wanted to take my girls out for a walk this morning, but grumpy people don't exercise.
Point of this story, I'm tired. Haven't slept all night since before I was pregnant with Jocelyn. If I'm in a bad mood, I want other people to know about it. How self centered right?
Umm...complain away.
ReplyDeleteThe whole waking up a billion times every night is probably one of my least favorite parts about parenting. I wrote a pretty similar post about Maggie when she was 9 months old...same thing. I sleep-trained her about 5 or 6 times, but then she would get sick and so I would go back to nursing her a bajillion times to try to comfort her every night...it was rough. So I TOTALLY understand what you're going through, and if you wanted to move to AZ (you do, don't you?), I'd be willing to come over and watch your kiddos so's you could sleep.
Le Sigh.
And, by the way, I'm usually a pretty decent cook, but EVERY.SINGLE.MEAL I have made this past week has been flat-out terrible. Like, embarrassingly so. It's hard on the ol' ego. Maybe it's something in the air messing up both of our cooking skills?
Or possibly the lack of sleep.
Hang in there. I love you!