I get really really upset at the stupidest things. It really is a pregnancy thing. Man, I hate this whole hormone thing. Looking back at things that make me so mad just don't make sense anymore. Why was I so angry? Here's the latest example:
My husband is the Young Mens president in our ward. For a fundraiser for scout camp, they are doing a Christmas tree pickup. Now, when I was a youth, we did this same fundraiser and though I don't remember how much we made from it, I remember making bank. I remember one year, I think the young women only had to pay like 10 bucks for girls camp because we raised enough money to pay for most of girls camp and scout camp for everyone. It was neat.
So naturally, if it was successful for when I was a youth, we thought it would be pretty good to do here. We don't have to raise a ton of money, but we thought it would be more lucrative than last years fundraiser (going around and begging for money).
John had to work this morning, so I told him I would handle the gathering discussion stuff. All the young men were scheduled to meet at my house at 10 AM today to pass out fliers. Not to go into too many details, but only 4 young men showed up from 2 different families. We had to recruit more adults and even some sisters. Out of the 11 people total that handed out fliers, 4 were young men, 1 primary kid, 4 adults, and 2 girls. I was fine at first. Then I started thinking about it....
An hour later, I was so mad that these young men didn't come to hand out fliers! I was so mad I even called Morgan, an old mission buddy, also pregnant, to complain. As I was saying it out loud, I realized how stupid I was for being so mad. First of all, it is right before Christmas. There was no other weekend to do it, but there probably was a really good reason why only 4 youth showed up.
See. I'm crazy.
Then another thing that totally doesn't make sense: I can't have a child born in December. My child is due Jan 4. I asked the doc if he thinks she will stay in at least until Jan 1st because I can't have a kid born in December because I think they will be ugly, annoying, and not well behaved. I still stand firm to that. He laughed at me. Luckily his birthday isn't in December. Then I was thinking about everything that I know that was born in December and all I could think of was a good friend growing up: Michelle. She is NOTHING like what I think my December-born child will be. I just feel with Christmas, the child's birthday won't be special and she will be neglected. It makes sense in my head, but the doc probably thought I was crazy.
Sorry for the boring ramblings. This blogging thing is a way for me to vent to people who won't listen to me. Like I told my cotton-ball friend, it's like a wall that I need to talk to.
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Monday, December 17, 2012
Wearing Pants and Loving It
I don't know if any of you heard about the "all Mormon women should wear pants to church on Sunday, Dec 16" thing, but I did. Here's some article that some girl posted about wearing pants.
See, let me just tell you the dealio. Here's my experience at church on Sunday and then my thoughts. I didn't wear pants to church on Sunday because I really don't like wearing pants and I didn't have any points that I needed to prove. I was surprised at how many women were outraged at the thought of women wearing pants to church. Do they know that there is nothing wrong with it? It's okay to wear pants to church. It is people that are outraged and make a big deal out of it that offend women into not coming to church because they are afraid of being judged.
When we were on vacation, we went to church in Montana. Of course I forgot to pack a skirt. You know what my first thought was? "Oh no! I forgot to bring something nice to wear to church. Maybe I shouldn't go." Wow. Thinking back on that, how stupid was I? I was more worried about what people thought if I wore jeans to church than going to church for the real reason: to learn about Jesus and take the Sacrament.
When I was a missionary in Taiwan, many women did not come to church because they did not own a dress or skirt. I told them it was okay to just wear pants, but they were too afraid to and probably couldn't even afford to buy a skirt. They let a $10 skirt stand in the way of their salvation. If I were not a missionary at that time, I would have said, "I'll wear pants too if you come!". The most important thing is that they came and felt comfortable being there. It's the message and the spirit that counts, not the fashion show.
I feel like when we go to church, we need to look our best. For some women, that may be slacks and a nice blouse. Before this whole deal, my sister wore pants to church. She looked good and respectful. She probably looked better with pants on than those ugly shirts that she owns. (No offense Amanda)
The only problem is, that the reason why this "wear pants to church day" started was because a group of "Mormon feminist" did it for equality in the church. That I don't understand. I, in no way, feel unequal to men in the church. I have more to say about it, but honestly, it's a testimony thing to understand our divine role as women. I DO NOT mean that the "Mormon feminist" do not have a testimony or true understanding about gospel teachings, but maybe I don't understand what their thoughts are behind what they feel is considered inequality in the church. Just because our roles are different does not mean that they are unequal.
See, let me just tell you the dealio. Here's my experience at church on Sunday and then my thoughts. I didn't wear pants to church on Sunday because I really don't like wearing pants and I didn't have any points that I needed to prove. I was surprised at how many women were outraged at the thought of women wearing pants to church. Do they know that there is nothing wrong with it? It's okay to wear pants to church. It is people that are outraged and make a big deal out of it that offend women into not coming to church because they are afraid of being judged.
When we were on vacation, we went to church in Montana. Of course I forgot to pack a skirt. You know what my first thought was? "Oh no! I forgot to bring something nice to wear to church. Maybe I shouldn't go." Wow. Thinking back on that, how stupid was I? I was more worried about what people thought if I wore jeans to church than going to church for the real reason: to learn about Jesus and take the Sacrament.
When I was a missionary in Taiwan, many women did not come to church because they did not own a dress or skirt. I told them it was okay to just wear pants, but they were too afraid to and probably couldn't even afford to buy a skirt. They let a $10 skirt stand in the way of their salvation. If I were not a missionary at that time, I would have said, "I'll wear pants too if you come!". The most important thing is that they came and felt comfortable being there. It's the message and the spirit that counts, not the fashion show.
I feel like when we go to church, we need to look our best. For some women, that may be slacks and a nice blouse. Before this whole deal, my sister wore pants to church. She looked good and respectful. She probably looked better with pants on than those ugly shirts that she owns. (No offense Amanda)
The only problem is, that the reason why this "wear pants to church day" started was because a group of "Mormon feminist" did it for equality in the church. That I don't understand. I, in no way, feel unequal to men in the church. I have more to say about it, but honestly, it's a testimony thing to understand our divine role as women. I DO NOT mean that the "Mormon feminist" do not have a testimony or true understanding about gospel teachings, but maybe I don't understand what their thoughts are behind what they feel is considered inequality in the church. Just because our roles are different does not mean that they are unequal.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Wow. I Have NO Style
No joke. I haven't really gone clothes shopping since.... I don't know, I bought my missionary wardrobe? Wow. That's an embarrassment. I left on a mission 5, almost 6 years ago. Well, I have bought maternity clothes, but that doesn't really count. I guess I have bought a shirt here and there. Then every time my mother sees me, she usually comments about how homeless I look and attempts to buy me clothes, but then I can't pick out anything that I like. Why can't everyone just wear basketball short and baggy shirts like I do? We would all be comfortable and then wouldn't have to judge other people for looking differently than we do.
I'm pregnant. No surprise there. Therefore, I only wear basketball shorts in the house, then I attempt to wear human clothes outside, but I still hate it. I only own like 5 maternity tops and who needs more? I mean, I am so huge now that I only leave the house twice/week. Anyway, thank goodness I am about to have this baby because I can't wait to walk normally, sleep on my tummy, and not have an aching back all the time. The point is, I don't really care about pregnancy wardrobe, so let's not even think about it.
We live in a 4 bedroom house right now. It is way too big for us, but we got a steal of a deal for it, so we bought it. We are going to move to Texas next year, most likely into a 2 bedroom apartment. Do you know what that means? I have to get everything from a 4 bedroom house into a 2 bedroom. Now, we use to live in a small apartment and I don't think we have bought any really new big items just to fill our extra space, but I am still terrified that I will not have room to put everything. So lately, I have been donating everything to DI if I haven't touched it in the last 2 months. It's actually a little bit of an obsession. You know what that means? Yes, my pre-pregnancy clothes.
Now, remember, I haven't gone shopping in years. Heck, when I bought my clothes, they weren't really in style at the time anyway. I went through everything 3 times and my husband even helped me. I donated or threw away everything that would never fit me again, were just too ugly and I shouldn't wear in public, or were faded and looked really cheap. That left me with just a small box that all my clothes fit in. I pretty sure I have 4 or 5 shirts, no pants, and 1 skirt. Maybe there's a sweater in there? I can't remember.
So as my labor day is fast approaching, I decided to go online to search for new clothes. Of course my sister was on skype, so I sent her links to clothes I liked. First of all, the sad thing is, the only store I could think of was JC Penny and that's only because Ellen Degeneres is the spokeslady. As I was sending links to my sister, she said that everything I picked out was either frumpy mom or too fancy. I am trying to avoid the plain colored shirts and button up dorky missionary shirts. That leave me with crazy patterns and the frump stuff.
Let's face it. I can't look at Idaho people really for inspiration.
Oh burn. No offense, but the styles here are 10 years behind California.
Okay, point is, someone tell me what is stylish to wear, super comfortable, and not really expensive. Please.
I'm pregnant. No surprise there. Therefore, I only wear basketball shorts in the house, then I attempt to wear human clothes outside, but I still hate it. I only own like 5 maternity tops and who needs more? I mean, I am so huge now that I only leave the house twice/week. Anyway, thank goodness I am about to have this baby because I can't wait to walk normally, sleep on my tummy, and not have an aching back all the time. The point is, I don't really care about pregnancy wardrobe, so let's not even think about it.
We live in a 4 bedroom house right now. It is way too big for us, but we got a steal of a deal for it, so we bought it. We are going to move to Texas next year, most likely into a 2 bedroom apartment. Do you know what that means? I have to get everything from a 4 bedroom house into a 2 bedroom. Now, we use to live in a small apartment and I don't think we have bought any really new big items just to fill our extra space, but I am still terrified that I will not have room to put everything. So lately, I have been donating everything to DI if I haven't touched it in the last 2 months. It's actually a little bit of an obsession. You know what that means? Yes, my pre-pregnancy clothes.
Now, remember, I haven't gone shopping in years. Heck, when I bought my clothes, they weren't really in style at the time anyway. I went through everything 3 times and my husband even helped me. I donated or threw away everything that would never fit me again, were just too ugly and I shouldn't wear in public, or were faded and looked really cheap. That left me with just a small box that all my clothes fit in. I pretty sure I have 4 or 5 shirts, no pants, and 1 skirt. Maybe there's a sweater in there? I can't remember.
So as my labor day is fast approaching, I decided to go online to search for new clothes. Of course my sister was on skype, so I sent her links to clothes I liked. First of all, the sad thing is, the only store I could think of was JC Penny and that's only because Ellen Degeneres is the spokeslady. As I was sending links to my sister, she said that everything I picked out was either frumpy mom or too fancy. I am trying to avoid the plain colored shirts and button up dorky missionary shirts. That leave me with crazy patterns and the frump stuff.
Let's face it. I can't look at Idaho people really for inspiration.
Oh burn. No offense, but the styles here are 10 years behind California.
Okay, point is, someone tell me what is stylish to wear, super comfortable, and not really expensive. Please.
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