I was ashamed at first. Really ashamed actually. I didn't even tell my own mother and I've known for a month, but now I'm ready to tell the world!
I have gestational diabetes aka pregnant lady diabetes.
I was so ashamed because I didn't really understand what it was. I thought only really really overweight people and candy bar addicts were diabetic. Then I was thinking of everyone that I know that is diabetic, and they're not fat, so I don't know what I was thinking.
Turns out, I eat too many carbs and my body just can't process it as a pregnant lady. The only tough thing about this for me is that the only thing that I every want to eat is carbs, bread mostly. I use to go through like 2 bags of bagels and 4 loaves of bread in a week because that is all that I can keep down. Well, can't do that anymore.
On Friday, I went to a meeting to learn about how to use my finger pricker to test my blood sugar (4 times/day) and learn about how to keep my gestational diabetes under control. I pretty much learned that I can't really eat anything.
Maybe I'm just frustrated. The only junk I can eat is veggies and really, who craves those? I like them usually, but not during pregnancy so much. I'm a tiny person, well, use to be in high school and college. So what I tip the scale a little more than Mr BMI says I should. No biggie. Well, my stomach just doesn't have room for a whole meal at a time, so I do a lot of snacking. Now, I don't know what to snack on if I can't eat fruit or bread.
Then I'm all worried because I haven't really gained enough weight this pregnancy, but I was a pretty hefty lady before I became with child.
But I'm trying to be positive. I can't really be positive now because I'm so angry that I can't eat, so I'm planning for the future.
Word on the street is that as soon as the umbilical chord is cut, I no longer have gestational diabetes. Word! So I have my menu all planned out: Tuna fish sandwich, 3 candy bars: Reeses, Twix, and Snickers, and a nice big glass of juice! V8 Splash to be exact.
Then I have to get back to real life and exercise again and cook real meals. But really, props to people who always have the 200g carbs thing for the rest of their lives. I can't imagine. I was just thinking, on Saturday we have primary practice for the program on Sunday and I can't even eat the donuts and juice that they will be serving. I usually don't like to eat that kind of stuff at church anyway because I want other people to think that I eat healthy foods, but now that I can't have it, it's just devastating. At least before I had that option.
I'm done.
